downpour in my heart

Why? I've been here and there, been everywhere. I tried hard to improve, to change, to be better. I guess it's all gone to waste? Good intentions are unnoticed but even the lightest flaw can create sparks. I did overcome some of my fears, but why the negative outcomes? It's entirely confusing. I don't know if it's me or any shit. I can't to not be bothered, 'cause it's life, family. Yknow, it's hard to admit but family can be scary. It's not like it's 'money can be scary', but family. All sorts of bulls I had to go through, and I don't seem to see any ends. No unity, no sincerity. Nothing but plain prejudice. Prejudice babe, prejudice. I fucking hate that word.