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-Thursday, December 24, 2009 ' 7:18 PM
it's swifting courses..

nowadays has been such a bore! being committed to doing household chores is so not me :P normally I did the chores when I'm super free, but since a few days back, I sacrificed some of my precious time cleaning the house.. it's really great, but on the other hand, it's of no use since my siblings and cousins messed up the house again -_- there goes my hardwork.. anyway yesterday, helped my aunt wrapped her daughter's school books with the plastic cover. even though exhausting, but wrapping things is really a hobby of mine! but only a hobby, not a job, mind you. and what did I get in return? MAGGI -_- worst was it had no CHILLIES!! without chillies I don't have the spirit (:P) to eat 'cause it's not gonna be spicy and GAH for me.. but for my stomach's sake, it's finished. then continued my daily routine of surfing the internet.. wee~ I watched a lot of super hot music videos, randomly found, and of course, browsing through people's photo albums on fb. then got ready for sensasi's 9.30pm sinetron ; SUJUDKU.. left with 6 more episodes to the end of the drama. most funniest character - SONI (he's a gagap), you should really enjoy his acting :D 

anyway, was supposed to go to pioneer mall to buy the purple-packed raisin chocolates with sheela but was cancelled since she intended to go to town but I couldn't go that far, and so spent the day by playing games at fb and chatted with dearest NAD syg XD hahaha.. yup, saddens me when I found out she couldn't perform with us this Sunday :( tried to webcam, but I couldn't really fix mine :P but I could see her for a few minutes only.. Variasi's having training for the men tonight, days of rest for me.. hehehe.. I'm REALLY BORED even though my posts sounded Fun.. haish.. Oh ya, watched Akademi Polis at Sensasi.. it was hilarious with the funny sarcasms and actions! and also, "I love men in uniform" (quoted by Dawn in Step Up) hmm.. so I guess that's what happened? 

I'm currently saving money for myself and other needs but indeed it was loaned to my siblings and mum. so, guess have to wait again for end of month for my pay and from shows.. there's a lot I intend to buy, but isn't confirmed. my heels broke!! so I'm desperate for a new one! 

CHRISTMAS'S TOMORROW and it's my former irritating partner YUEN YIXIAN's birthday.. -_- 2 more days to first Wedding show after months!

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-Wednesday, December 23, 2009 ' 9:18 AM
it's swifting courses..

went to aunt's company tour in the morning, and made my feet sore!! had to wear high heels ala-ala one of the office workers, and it really pained! ate not much, even though there's a lot of variety of YUMMY foods, but that doesn't increase my appetite. aunt sent me back home as I had to stuff the One-Drop perfumes to bring for VPA. I had to take bus to khuda's since my aunt had no time to wait. went to meet aee at woodlands then set off to bugis. abg hamz gave us a treat, ate at beach road, and I had to force myself to eat again since I don't want to make him feel ____. then back to CC and the promotion begins - since the three of us were having headaches (at the same time -.-) we had a short rest in the coldddd room. at 6.30 I went to meet aida and ana, and backk.. I just knew about nad's problems since I wasn't online in blogger. haish.. no wonder she didn't text me or whatsoever.. hmm.. so sad she wasn't able to attend practice. anyways, had a so-called intensive training and learnt a new style of breathing. wooh.. then we danced zapin kampung melayu and finished the formation. only left more for the men who are going to be having training tomorrow which us females aren't compulsory to come (hehehehe :D) REST!
anyway, I'm super extremely FRUSTRATED AND IRRITATED with my dad.. how many times must I inform him I'm gonna reach home late at 11.30 every tuesday???!! EVERY doesn't mean that PARTICULAR tuesday!! gosh! even he threatens me everytime!!!! saying that he said once or twice, I'd better listen, don't make him be so tough on me.. WTH?! please lah, it's been like 3 years?? and do I have to keep repeating that variasi ends at 9.45 and I'm gonna reach late? OMG.. is he like having STM? or SUPER STM? astaga... irritating me in the bus with his messages really really really SUCKS.. even last year he was the one fetching me from training, and did he like FORGOT? haiyooo.. even my mum's not so exaggerating to the extent of messaging me EVERYTIME.. *SIGHHHHHHHHHHH* ASTAGA ASTAGA ASTAGA!!!
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I really don't know what else to say except that LIFE SUCKS WHEN THERE'S NO FREEDOM

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-Monday, December 21, 2009 ' 7:11 PM
it's swifting courses..

KARAOKE.
practiced my singing and emo-ed at the same time. khuda played the song; HARAPAN by Fazli Zainal, only to find me shutting myself up and started to feel saddd.. just missed my instructor :'( then khuda was busy scanning my thumbdrive in her mini laptop, and I sang GERIMIS MENGUNDANG by Slam. hahaha, I cried while singing!! lucky, my voice was still intact and didn't break.. bla3, helped her with her household chores, and ironed her dress since she was rushing to the toilet, then we set off to west mall. anyway, the weather was super hot, takleh angs!! accompanied her to starhub's outlet to enquire about the broadband thingy.. bla3, went home while she went to meet her fiance.

Gerimis Mengundang by SLAM



Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan



Oh kasih.... Inikah kesudahan.. Ikhtiarku tiada lagi, walau kita saling sayang.. 
Bile agaknye eh aku nak hentikan hobi berjiwang aku ni? Hmm..




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- ' 9:20 AM
it's swifting courses..

yesterday was one of the happiest moments of my life!! :D
auntie apis fetched me from my house at 12.45nn and we set off to nek ina's house for the gathering, and ate laksa :) it's been a tremendously long time since I ate laksa! it was quite delicious. actually syima and I planned to spree at bugis and fareast, but since cik apis and kak nora decided to join, we went to suntec city but the sales were so boring.. and so we went to bugis village and bugis junction.. first, i bought 3 pairs of earrings for $5, 'cause it's been ages since I bought one, and had a hard time picking! then, we went around, and it became MORE exciting when cik apis told me to take what I want, 'cause it's her treat :D wee~~~~~~
I can now save more money!
I bought (she paid) quite a lot, hehehe, and it totaled to around $80. and we were rushing home at 10.30pm, so I didn't get to choose the handbag and shoes :'( but anyways, thanks a lot!!
abg rizal sent me home and I reached at 11.30, and very exhausted! gonna set off to khuda's house soon for karaoke.. hahaha > ill girl's bored so she called me over -_-
and EXTREMELY CONTENTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intellingent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one's self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived - this is to have succeeded.

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-Wednesday, December 16, 2009 ' 12:29 PM
it's swifting courses..

started off the day with accompanying khuda to perm her hair, which took about 2 hours approx. then helped her out with her household chores, and left the house and off to sembawang. bought some food and drinks which we brought to sembawang park afterwards. had a long chat, about whom khuda promised to tell the history of. and back to jelutung cc, spent the freetime by dancing, reading newspapers and of course, emoing. both of us were indeed in a depressed situation of men. (ms sandra taught not to use 'guys')
wanted to buy tidbits through the vending machine on the first floor, and had a shock when the lift door open and there was a male cleaner (malay) who suddenly appeared from nowhere. and he could still stand rooted and stared at me. i melatah 'mak kau jatuh', and he replied, 'mak jatuh, nak pergi mana?' (where are you going?). he seemed kind of weird and scary. in the end i waited for nadiah instead of buying the tidbits 'cause i lost the courage to go up the lift alone. completed zapin kampung melayu dance, and left with the opening dance and pestariasi's. had an embarrassing situation too, but only hani knows that :P


















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am quite curious
my heart sank
if its true
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problems arising after another.. am getting extremely sick of this! do i have to pretend i don't give a damn when i really do, and it concerns me too? i know i'm not strong in facing such situations, so please don't create problems for me and others. if you want to leave, consider the fact that you're throwing your most precious ones away.

to R.U;
GO TO HELL!!

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-Monday, December 14, 2009 ' 4:09 PM
it's swifting courses..

LONELY now and forever..

am searching back for the old songs, 'cause the songs really touched my heart. as always, been so lonely and depressed that i became a jiwang type of person.
listening to Steelheart's She's Gone, and Scorpion's Still Loving You.. more also.
been looking for jobs, but found none. nevermind, since i still can get some money from my shows to come..

am i supposed to keep quiet and let it happen again?


anyway, babysitting my naughty cousins are really fun! losing to their pranks and jokes..
they made me as childish as i can be.













my mum's considering to become a M.A.C. dealer, but i didn't allow her, 'cause her customers are those type of not-paying-at-all..

thought of buying this 4-colour blusher at $19, but my current blusher's still alot..











went for ain society flagday on saturday, and got a blister on the sole of my feet. anyway, it was really funny, recalling doing the flagdays under school activities. went for training afterwards, and ended the training by cleaning up the storeroom. accompanied Nad to sembawang mall's daiso to buy her ezlink card case, and ended up buying something else. tired as always.


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-Friday, December 11, 2009 ' 8:44 PM
it's swifting courses..

well, i've been enjoying watching 'huan huan ai', very funny, yet touching at the same time. didn't know how many times i cried because of some rejectful moments.. :'( only completed till episode 12, left 3 more to go.. and ya, kingone wang, wah, love him :D








anyway, being at home isn't such a bore at most. ended up doing the household chores and i'm very quite satisfied with myself. not self-praising, but atleast i did some work rather than laying down and keep on emoing, right? to show you how clean my house is, i took some snaps. hahaha, didn't know if its clean enough though..

anyway, i wanted to make the dapur as fragrant as i can.. so instead, washed the gas-switcher (?) with body soap lavender :P














I'm sure you wouldn't want to see my balcony.. gosh.. 
even the storeroom's cleaner










and to celebrate the staying over of my cousins in my house
much like baby-sitting, ah..







so what do you think? LOL..
see, i'm left with posting this pics 'cause i'm really bored
atleast for those who've always wanted to see my house 'cause they never had a chance too,
nah, take a glimpse

anyway, ya, i'm quite busy with trainings and some personal matters (4eva)..
and am enjoying myself to it no matter what (not the PM)
looking forward to next year, and gonna be ready for more shows!

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-Tuesday, December 8, 2009 ' 3:41 PM
it's swifting courses..

An able man shows his spirit by gentle words and resolute actions.
--CHESTERFIELD
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Aku sebenarnya tengah binget dengan abang aku. Ok, nak katakan, aku asyik tak berbual dengan orang yang gaduh dengan aku untuk berape lame. Seriously, he sucks to the core. Bile baik, baik sangat, sangat sampai aku rase macam terhutang budi, tapi bile die marah, YA ALLAH, bapa aku pun kalah.. Ade ke patot, maki aku sampai suruh aku mampus, depan mak aku sendiri.. Wow, bagus ye abang aku, berani benar. Aku cakaplah 'you think i'm so stupid, is it?', kau tahu ape die cakap? Ye, kau memang bodoh. Siak ah. Please lah, sebodoh bodoh aku pun, aku tak pernah maki adik aku. Die tu, maki adik sendiri. Fikir die mane punye baik ah, nak ckp buruk pasal aku. Cermin diri sendiri pun tak, astaga.. Inilah orang yang terlalu sangat menggunakan posisi sebagai 'abang'. Ye, aku ni kuat menyindir, sedar juga die. Yelah, mana tak, abang yang paling bagus, yang paling betul, yang paling hebat sekali, siapa tak kenal kan? Aku tahu aku pun ade kekurangan sebagai adik, tapi aku kuranghajar dengan die pun, sebab die marah aku untuk sesuatu yang betul. Bile aku buat salah, wah, abang membetulkannye, bile die yang salah, Opps!, lupe aku, die kan yang paling betul, so, thats it lah.. Haish, aku tak fahamlah hati dan fikiran kaum lelaki ni sume.. Boleh jadi gile tau kalau layankan.. Mak aku cakap tak sume laki macam tu. No, sume laki mcm tu.. Nak aku tukar pandangan aku? Sampai aku betul-betul jumpa laki yang dimaksudkan. Anyway, quote yang aku baru dapat hari ini betul-betul sesuai dengan masalah aku.. Coincidently.. Till then, aku ge dulu..

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- ' 2:12 PM
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Been enjoying myself lately, but still, there's some boredom though.. Few more hours to Variasi training, so have to do warm up at home first since recently I'm always having sores on my thighs, and made it tiring for me to dance. 

Anyway, I really miss my bestfriends :'(





-Thursday, December 3, 2009 ' 11:55 AM
it's swifting courses..

Many Thoughts of Many Minds
The art of using moderate abilities to advantage wins praise, and often acquires more reputation than actual brilliancy.
--LA ROCHEFOUCAULD










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Shazana
9th October
16 years old
I love to do something new
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' it
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life

Being so clueless;
Of my own future ahead..



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HAPPINESS
be a forensic scientist
cut hair ?
ALAF21 Novels [collected 12]
YAIBA comics
watch sunset with anyone [please?]
travel to France
own garden [as if]



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